It has been a year today since we made a decision that changed our lives for the better.
It seems so much longer then just a year, we are committed to this new way of life now and there is no looking back. I never once saw us in this, but once you feel the love and joy and hope and faith it takes you away and you never want to come back. It’s so easy to get lost in life, with all the negativity and shaming everywhere. To have somewhere safe, non-judgmental, positive and loving to go each week for our family is defiantly the highlight of our week.
Yesterday I learned forgiveness. It is one thing I have always struggled with, once you’ve hurt me or my family I’m like a crazy mumma-bear who holds that grudge for life. Changing the way you think is hard, but yesterday I gave this all away and forgave.
When you would talk bad about me, it’s ok. I forgive you.
When you would make things up about me just to boast yourself up, it’s ok. I forgive you.
When you would lie about the things you would say to me, it’s ok. I forgive you.
When you would show messages from me but neglect to show the ones you sent first, it’s ok. I forgive you.
When you would say the most hurtful things to the one you are meant to protect and love the most, it’s ok. I forgive you.
When you continuously lie to that same innocent person, it’s ok. I forgive you.
When you always put yourself first never once thinking about others, it’s ok. I forgive you.
When you said ‘you’re a piece of shit’ and other nasty words to that innocent girl, it’s ok. I forgive you.
When you called her fat and put her down with other hurtful words, it’s ok. I forgive you.
When we see you dote and love on others instead, it’s ok. I forgive you.
When you act like you were the one abandoned and the ‘victim’, it’s ok, I forgive you.
When you said that I deserved everything that happened on the 17th July 2014, it’s ok. I forgive you.
Forgiveness and love is the key to happiness.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 Corinthians 13:4-6
Holding on to all the hate and anguish is hard, the people who hurt you don’t care, they don’t walk around with it on their shoulders each day. They continue their life not thinking twice about what they said even though it was so truly hurtful for you.
Today I feel lighter, happier, free.
she's like a star.. 